I Suck At All Relationships

my best friend called me crying. she just needed someone to talk to. and I wasn't there. and my message back didn't even sound sympathetic.

I suck.

and even worse. the me that has been coming out...the me that I love?...no one knows that girl.

seems like I'm just a good laugh for everyone. hm.

my daylight would be better spent if that were possible. I don't know why I can't say things sometimes. I think I just get shy. I'm starting to build up walls. Things are so good I'm afraid to do something dumb. with three bees.