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so it's been 5 days since i've talked to him.

it feels like forever.

today I went to the doctor. I told him everything.
he put me on Xanax for anxieties.

I feel a lot better...i just wish john would talk to me.
though we always said we weren't friends...

i feel like i lost my best friend. again.

and he doesn't even care. again.

that makes 3 times in one year.