September 03, 2004 What Happened... I've had two dreams about you. In the first one you text messaged me and said sorry for everything that had happened and...we became friends again, and I was so happy to know that you cared. In the second dream I realized that the first was fiction, and...you showed up at a party. I thought this was strange that I had just had a dream about you. This one was more realistic. We didn't talk at the party, not for a while. We vaguely spoke and I couldn't wait till the moment that we embraced and you told me our friendship wasn't over at all... It never actually happened that I remember, but I knew that you just being there meant everything. I now realize that they were both just dreams...and we aren't friends. My best friend...isn't my friend anymore...and I don't know what I did... You are such a coward for not telling me, not talking to me, not acknowledging my existance. I told your voicemail that I would not be attending your wedding, and in finding out that it's in Ohio...there's no question that I can't attend. But I hear you're having a wedding shower and...I can't decide whether the mature thing is to go...or to take a hint and not go. I care about you so much...and have supported your marriage from the beginning...I can't figure a reason that you're not speaking to me. I may never know, and that kills me. You're killing me. Justin Goeden, I awoke a sad sad girl this morning, and I blame this on you. |