and it all comes down to You

i don't know what is happening to my life.

how very in love with him i am...but i feel as though...well....

we're falling apart.

and there comes that feeling again.

there comes that feeling..that goddamned feeling yet AGAIN.

can't anything ever just feel okay??

will i ever be okay?

I thought it was my turn, God? i thought it was my turn to be happy. to quit sitting in the corner on the floor and to actually start living it.

i'm not looking for a fairytale.
i just want to feel okay.