I'm Desensitized to the Hanging Picture...If Only Hanging These Memories Would Do the Same

I hate thinking about you still...b/c you were the last boy I had real conversations with who didn't end up hating me. Maybe you cheated on me. But you were real.

And I miss that.

And even if you lied to me all along, you were darn good at it...and I appreciate your efforts.

For a short time you made me happy.

I hate thinking about you still...b/c you remind me of everything I'm not...everything that I was...before you.

I've changed Stephen, and I miss you...I miss you not being there...b/c that was me...before you.