Meant For Something More?

I sit here pondering my recent circumstances and wonder...what would Jesus do?

But Jesus didn't worry about girls...he didn't date. He didn't worry about who he was going to marry...and whether he'd be good enough for anyone.

I wish I didn't have to worry about that.

I've always thought I wasn't allowed to love b/c I have some horrible disease, or can't have children, or...I'm going to die soon. And the more I think about it, the more I think I'm right.

Maybe that's just not my purpose...because not even in my dreams have I ever been able to picture myself in love.